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Friday, April 2, 2021

Golgotha

Amazing grace and extravagant favor That Golgotha would be graced by His presence And sprinkled with His blood. Death’s defeat was not merely its elimination But its beautification.

"Christ in Limbo" by Hieronymus Bosch



It was not mere human execution that took place on that hill, but a demonic onslaught. Men may have pierced His flesh, but Hell enveloped His spirit. Separated from the Presence and offered to Death, such is the wrath of God. What glee and cries of delight, the ugliest sound Heaven had ever heard, with which bloody chains assaulted Him. Screams of victory erupted from the throat of Hell as the Son was dragged into its bowels; the Father and Dove looked on as one of their own disappeared into the darkness.

But the darkness was too stupid to see the end, for the darkness blinded even itself. With the trap with which it ensnared mankind for millennia it ensnared itself. Never could it anticipate that the divine bloodstains in its halls would seal its demise. It did not realize that holding Him within its caverns made it possible for even those in Hades to say that the Christ was Emmanuel for them as well. It thought God was offering a sacrifice to Hell, when it was Hell that was unknowingly participating in a sacrifice to God. It lusted for His blood, forgetting the ancient warning that life is in the blood. It did not foresee its gates would be kicked open by the Dove, leaving a holy footprint to this day. It did not expect a mass exodus out of Hell, led by the Lamb who was slain.

And the Father watched as His Son, forever scarred, emerge into the light of the morning sun.

Saturday, August 22, 2020

The Two Greatest Failures of Every Generation


     Let us consider the people of Nineveh. Roughly around 760 B.C., the prophet Jonah confronted the wickedness of the city, resulting in a religious awakening and a swing toward monotheism. Thus, the people were spared from judgment.

    Fast forward slightly over a hundred years later to the days of Nahum. Wickedness prevailed in the city once again. Most of the people who were old enough to remember the revival of Jonah were gone, and Nahum arrived to proclaim a similar but more elaborate message. This time, they were not spared. Shortly thereafter, in 612 B.C., Nineveh sat in ruins.

    It took the Assyrian city five generations; for early Israel, not so much. Flip over the Book of Judges and we find the infamous cycle of rebellion, judgment, repentance, deliverance. Starting with the man Othniel, after he delivered Israel, "the land had rest for 40 years" (Judges 3:11). Then wickedness reigned again, and then came the Moabite oppression. Ehud rose up to deliver the people as the second judge, and there was peace for 80 years. Then came Deborah, whose work ushered in another 40 years of freedom before the cycle started again. Then came Gideon, after whom 45 years of peace ensued, before Israel turned again. Are you seeing the pattern? It took Israel an average of 1-2 generations for the spiritual climate to dry out. May I suggest that the primary reason for these frequent fallouts may be the lack of transmission of the knowledge and fear of God from one generation to the next? How would I guess this? It's the crazy possibility that members of the generation that went through one season of cultural wickedness lived to see the next in 40 years--and probably did nothing about it.

    Thus these I believe are the two greatest failures of every generation, which I still see to this day:

        1. The failure to impart healthy values to the generation after;
        2. The failure to receive and learn important values from the generation before.

    On one side, it is irresponsible not to pass on the wisdom, customs, and beliefs that sustained you in life. On the other side, it is arrogant to think that you can figure out this thing called life without the guidance of the past, let alone do it better than they had.

    That being said, it is at this point where I must unpack the layers of what we are talking about. At the same time as I am calling to retain the teachings of the past, I am also calling to renew them. We must be both adamant traditionalists and ardent progressives; I don't mean progressive in the postmodern sense (assuming it makes any sense at all), but truly progressive in seeking the renewing of the world. There is a reason why we human cultures propagate endlessly into new generations; so that we don't grow so old that we die of chronic stiffness. It is the job of the young people to birth our long-held value systems into new life, and I say we let them have at it. The problem is that these youngsters, more often than not, don't so much evolve our value system as much as kill it. They kill off more than they have to replace it with.

    That's not to say there ought not to be any killing involved, however. Every time something evolves, something needs to die; in order for the rocket to enter orbit, the thrusters need to fall off. You can trust the next generation to be merciless in their critique, but that is all it must be: a critique, not a rebellion. You ought to renovate the house, but ripping it off from over your bed is not such a good idea. It is naïve to think that you can usher in a better world with your tiny brain and 20 years of life experience. You need to be at least a thousand years old to formulate anything that could possibly reach that goal. But good news! By seeking out the successes, failures, and even folk lore of ages past (not to mention your own parents), you can have the wisdom of centuries to augment the energy and imagination of your youth. In a way, you can be bigger than you are. I would also argue that that is what culture ought to be: a wise sage with a young soul.

    We are responsible for what we pass on, or fail to pass on, to those who come after us. We are also responsible for learning, or failing to learn, from history. This applies on the large scale of culture as well as the smaller scale of the family unit and the individual. As for me, I am determined to be an exception in these two greatest failures of every generation.

Friday, July 24, 2020

What Happens When You Lie?


Photo by Kristina Flour on Unsplash


        A few years ago, I wrote a post titled, "Is It Ever Right to Lie?" My thought on the subject has developed so much since that posting, and I'd like to return to the topic. This time, rather than asking if it is ever okay to lie, I thought I should instead contemplate the matter by asking: what actually happens when you lie? As we discuss the psychology of something as simple as lying, you and I are going to take a journey of abstraction together. As we do so, we may find that lying is not so simple after all, and may actually be one of the most powerful endeavors we can embark on: the enterprise of definition.

        Let us start with the basics. What is a lie? I will not bore you or insult your intelligence with the dictionary's definition. Come with me to this other part of the mountain here and take a look. A lie is not merely a false statement. Let's take the harmless example of a magician performing a show. He tells you a narrative, weaving an illusion to show you what he wants you to see, and what he wants to hide. With a deft slight of hand, and crafty words, he convinces you of a certain truth, only to pull the rug from under you, to your wide-eyed amusement. The same concept in these tricks of entertainment carries to other (sometimes less amusing) scenarios. In the eyes of the deceived, a false image has been painted for you. The painter has taken advantage of your ignorance and has made you see what he wants you to see, and your trust has become your downfall. He has taken the threads of the universe and has woven a fictional reality, as the trickster Iago did for Othello, full-blooded flesh on the one side and hollow bones on the other. And you, in your naivete, have bought into the narrative and integrated it into the story of your life. And by doing so, you have laid your bed on that phantom cornerstone. This is why the deception is so significant and, when found out, disastrous. For every accepted truth is like a pillar of a house. Once established, you build around it, on top of it, across it. Your sense of the world is dependent upon it. Your livelihood weighs upon it, so woe to you if a pillar proves false.

        The foundation holding you up crumbles beneath your feet. Is there anything, then, you can trust? The painting rips away to reveal skeletons in a closet. No painting in the world can touch your soul again. The fabric of reality tears at the seams and you find yourself staring into the gaping black hold of the void, paralyzed and frail. And if you don't keep yourself, the void may suck away at your soul until you are but a shadow of yourself and your hollow eyes see nothing but emptiness in the world, devoid of life and meaning. This is the wasteland the deceiver leaves in his wake, the lie blown off like chaff in the wind.

        Of this monster of the world the small everyday tricks are but mere imitations. The innocent deceptions made in jest by the entertainer are washed-down versions of the real dragon, like the cute cartoon devils with pitchforks are of the true fallen angel. I proclaim no judgment on the white lies of a benevolent heart save this one: that all lies, though of varying intents, bear this same sin: the fabricating of reality. In this enterprise of definition, man plays God, just as the rebel of Heaven plays God to this day.

        This coldness of the underworld is also left to the victim of betrayal. The man wounded by a faithless lover peels through every page of their history, questioning the reality of every smile, word, and kiss. His doubt grows like his shadow, putting everything he has known on trial in the courtroom of his mind until he ends up prosecuting even himself. The one with the knife in his back may question his reality until one day he decides that nothing therefore is real, save the black hole of despair. In Dante's Inferno, the interesting choice was made to condemn Judas the Betrayer to the deepest pit of Hell, next to Satan himself. It seems that the gravest sin of all, next to the pride that split the heavens, is that of plunging the knife in the back, that of sacrificing a brother's blood for one's gain, that of the kingslayer.

        Then there are those who would rather believe the lie if given the choice. They would choose the fabrication and even try to weave one themselves, all to escape the thing that is much more terrible--the truth. For the truth hurts. It is a double-edged sword that cuts between bone and marrow. It rips open your deepest secret. The cold certainty of Truth weighs like a heavy hand on all you knew, or wanted to know. It is both precious and dangerous, so much so that few would dare look into her face lest they see that of the Gorgon. For Truth often wears a terrible face, paralyzing all who look upon her as they watch their world crumble around them. But would that mean that the hurt is not worth the revelation? Could we then weave a fiction out of mercy? To that I answer, "Should we then stop all doctors from giving bad news, the lawyer from presenting evidence, and the god-forsaken newspapers from printing (though I sometimes do wish the press would shut up)? Shall we stop all surgeries because they cut through flesh and sometimes leave men bereft of a body part?" What then shall we do with the truth, that blade that sits upon the surgeon's table?

        Make no mistake, however: Truth has two faces; one hard and terrible, the other bright and benevolent. It has the heavy gavel of the father and the nurturing bosom of the mother. It can fill your world with light or strip away all mirth. Truth is an embalming oil, the mender of souls torn apart. She looks favorably on all her children, all who cross her name over their hearts, who raises the war banner with her emblem. But on her enemies she sneers. She haunts them and hunts them like a hound. They ward her off but she remains in their dreams, a horror that denies them even the bliss of solitude. She serves no man; she serves herself and only blesses or curses a man.

        The effects of the lie doesn't affect only the deceived, however; they also destroy the deceiver. In the act of formulating a pseudo-foundation for his brother, he has also found himself on the same soil. He has drunk his own poison and twisted his own soul. He has made for himself a trap of fiction to which he must adhere, though he knows better. He finds himself at the mercy of his own devices from which he can't escape without truth-telling. And as the loom weaves back and forth, he has no choice but to continue his treacherous efforts. But the more he weaves and the bigger his creation grows, he may one day find that he has not the strength to hold the threads in place. The beams and cords begin to pull him apart, and he discovers to his horror that the monster he has nurtured has grown beyond his fortitude, reflected in Dr. Frankenstein's horror at the creature of his invention. Truth stands in wait for the deceiver, sword in hand at the executioner's block. The blade may tarry but is held at the ready for when the threads finally snap and the verdict is declared. The enterprise of definition has been found to be too great for the hands of men, and those who attempt it without Truth at their side return twisted and disfigured.

        However one chooses to call upon the goddess of falsehood, I believe its manifestations in all its variety are bred of the same soil. But the devil is in the details, and I expect that should we try to address every possible instance in which the lie might be proved an exception we would be here for an ungodly amount of time. I will end with this: threads of reality have been entrusted to all mankind. Consider carefully what sort of fabric you choose to weave.

Wednesday, June 17, 2020

The Revival of the Ignorant




Can I accept the revival of the ignorant?
Does foolishness invalidate the seeker?
Must the worshiper be doctrinally sound?
Must the penitent be ultimately wise?

Should I rejoice at misguided spirituality?
Should I declare the presence of the glory?
Or must all be right and true
Before I can begin to praise You?

Or is it more important that I
Should join the throngs of the Church,
Though she be crippled, and deaf, and dumb, and blind,
And covered in ashes and dirt?

Would God receive the praises of him who
Cannot tell his left from his right?
But maybe I myself am no more wiser
In the shadow of His marvelous light.